So I am 18 weeks today. The weeks are just flying by! I still have a hard time believing that I am really pregnant but then I just look down and the evidence is right there.********I still don't fell the baby move a whole lot. Like maybe 3 times altogether. With Piper I felt her move every day all day from week 14. She would jump, kick, roll, somersault. She moved like that till about 35 weeks then it started to slow but that was cause she was huge and there just wasn't space anymore. Although she tried and it killed! But with Thaddeus, he moved maybe once every other day. But when he did move it was just a stretch then he would curl back up. I had feet and hands trying to tear out of my tummy with Piper and Thaddeus never tried escaping. But that is kinda there personalities now to.
********Every pregnant lady has thoughts that something is wrong cause I don't feel the baby move, or I'm not big enough, or whatever it is. Well I had all of those concerns the first time and then they all came true! It is hard for me to forget that and feel like all the babies that I have grown are safe. I know the experience of losing a baby has left a scar and I am not sure how to heal myself? I have two kids jumping on me all day everyday, so that makes my worries even more so. I know it is all irrational, but how can I not be that way?********I go to the doctor on the 21st. (My 6th wedding anniversary with Warren, and my sister-in-law Alyssa's birthday - she is due 11 days before me.) Maybe by then I will know if I have insurance to cover this pregnancy and hopefully he lets me get a second ultrasound. I really want another little girl. I loved having a little girl and now Piper is the biggest helper and sweetest little thing - when she wants to be. But then again, this baby and Thad will be so close it would be nice to have them the same gender. We have names for both that we are very excited to use, and honestly I just want a healthy, slightly smaller than my others, beautiful baby!
Anyway, I found this cute picture of Piper on my camera and wanted to share it!